Being Judged

Today I decided I would keep on top of my blog, I am sorry I haven't posted anything in a while, I am sure you don't even care but anyway now I am back and hopefully will keep on top of posting. I thought I would write about being judged and underestimated, it has been bothering me and putting me down a lot in the past few weeks so I wanted to write about it and help anyone else that maybe in the same position as me. I am someone that is a very difficult person at times, I do things that I shouldn't do and the things I do get me in to a lot of trouble, maybe more trouble than all of my other friends. I am surrounded by good friends, they don't get into trouble all of the time! I wouldn't say that I get told of in class as much, I normally am concentrated and I care a lot about what I want to do with my life, but when it comes down to friends, that seems to be the problem. This is referring to most girls that get judged, because girls are so nasty, bitter and bitchy this is when the arguments start and that's where I come into it! I have grown up the whole of my life being named a horrible and nasty person, AND IM NOT! I do hold my hands up and say I can get nasty and horrible at times when something really gets me angry, but I am always trying to avoid that nasty side of me, and that's what people don't understand or see in me. I try and impress a lot of people and change things around, I don't want to be known as some nasty, bitter person I want to be known to be a nice and lovely girl. Just because I didn't care about my reputation in primary or year 7 doesn't mean I don't now, I care an awful lot about the way I come across! I know I got into a lot of arguments in primary and I wasn't liked by nearly everybody's parents but the way I see it now is that if they still don't like me, then they can go jog on. I don't care what anybody's parents think of me now, they don't really even know me and to still judge me on what I was like in primary and year 7 is pathetic.

I have thought a lot in the past few weeks, that I will still try and be the happiest, cheerful Bethany, but just not to care what anyone thinks of me, not everyone is liked by every person they speak to and that's just a fact of life. Popularity really doesn't bother me, I have my own group of friends that I trust and can speak to about anything, I am just going to keep my head up and be proud of who I am today, I wouldn't be who I am today if I hadn't of made all the stupid mistakes, in fact I would probably just be the same as what I was 2 years ago. So thanks to all the mistakes I have made, it has made me a better person and has really opened my eyes, I have learnt not to always say what I think, I should just keep my opinions to myself, then everyone will have no problem with me, and cant go around and tell everyone that I have said something nasty. I hope this has helped anyone out there in the same position as me, if your feeling down because of what other makes you out to be, just think to yourself, do I really want to be the same person, I was? and just try and turn things around, because in the end it will get better.

Starting YouTube

So today I will be touching on a topic that I have really wanted to do for the last few weeks! I really want to start YouTube AGAIN! If you don't go to my school then let me just tell you a little story about little Miss Bethany Hicks over here: When I was in year 7 I started a YouTube called TheDramaQueen11100, I posted 3 videos on there, one with my friend Zoe, one of me doing my makeup routine and one showing you what I used for my makeup routine! First off they were bloody awful no one needed to tell me that as I watched back and cringed at everything I said. It was horrific and I am so happy that I finally managed to delete them off their. But whilst those videos were lying around on YouTube people from my school started to see them and watched them........ That's when I got teased and a little picked on for making them! I had little sarcastic comments from immature girls asking me to do a school outfit look book, and was asking for a shoutout in my new video! I could tell by the way their were laughing and the way they said it they were being sarcastic the other few comments came from the boys that think their funny in school! I think that put me off for a long time and I have never clicked on that upload button on YouTube since.

Recently I have been watching a lot of YouTube videos from other younger girls around the same age group as me and it has really inspired me to start up again. Ever since not being on YouTube I have still made videos but only just edited them and kept them on my laptop! Its a hobby that I really enjoy just like boys like rugby, or football or basketball, and like girls like playing netball or doing their hair or whatever your favourite hobby is! I don't understand what the problem with me making YouTube videos again is? This time I am elder and a lot more knowledgeable, I know how to edit a video and I have a decent quality camera so really there is nothing stopping me from doing it! The only thing that has put me off from doing it again is the people in school! My friend Derren also really wants to start making YouTube videos but is scared of what people will say in school. But know from the information and the inspiration I have took in from other YouTubers I don't care what anyone has to say about my YouTube! Of course I will have people hate on my YouTube and write little nasty comments but that delete button is there for a reason! For the people in school that want to say anything they can all just piss off (excuse me for the swearing) I am just sick and tired of what everyone else has to say or think! If they don't like me starting YouTube they don't have to watch my videos! If they don't like my YouTube videos then they don't have to watch them! If its something I like and enjoy doing then I will enjoy doing it no matter about what others think.

For anyone else who wants to join YouTube but the only thing holding them back is a few obnoxious people saying stuff then just take on board what I said and if it is something you like doing then just enjoy doing it! You shouldn't be held back from something you enjoy doing, if they do say anything in school just ignore it as easy as it sounds they will just get bored of the back of your head and will stop. My thoughts to anyone even THINKING about YouTube DO IT! You will thank yourself in the long run as you will just think to yourself I should have done this ages ago. For me its the right time for me to start again, its been 2 years since I was last on YouTube and I have grown up and learn a lot since then. The more you care what everyone else thinks the less you will be happy and that's a saying I have come up with because its true. If you care about everyone else's opinion on you, you wont be happy doing anything you enjoy just in case of what everyone around you thinks, you should be you and do whatever makes you happy! If nothing goes right go left: follow your own crowd and sure enough the crowd will start to follow you :)


Yes I am starting YouTube again and after writing this post I definitely want to do it now. Please go check out my channel and hopefully sometime next week I will do a video talking about YouTube again so go check that out! All my links will be below have a nice day Byeeeee ;)


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Hello There, Welcome!

Hello there and welcome to my new channel, on here I will just express my opinions on a few things and if your lucky maybe do a bit of travel posts ;) Seeming this is my first EVER post on my NEW blog I wanted you guys to know as much about me as possible. The fist thing is my name is Bethany Lauren Hicks, I live down in the south, west of the UK in a little place called Taunton. I live with my mum, dad and little brother. The things I love doing is eating and chatting with people, I'm not very active that's why you can say that I maybe a little chunky, but OH WELL! I literally cannot stand getting out of my bed, if my bed contained food and drink that would be my second home. But when I can pluck up the effort to get out of bed the things that I love doing is playing basketball and netball. The things that I dislike doing is walking MILES AND MILES AND MILES, I couldn't stand it when I had to take my dog out for a walk! The other thing that I don't like is very judgmental and rude people, I hate it when people think that your just a nobody and judges everything that you do, wear, say, eat etc.... BUT hopefully we will have none of that on here :)

Yep that's me on the right, just in case you cant tell. Just an average teen with green eyes and dark hair, that's not my natural hair colour, naturally I have ginger hair and because I hate the colour too much I dye my hair every couple or so weeks just make me feel that little bit better about my appearance.

I really hope that you come back and read more posts of mine as I think you will like them a lot. Mainly because I wont put any boring crap on here, I will make the effort to jazz my blog up for you, using my brand spanky new camera to take decent quality pictures that I can post on here for you. I will write posts that I think you will like the most ;) It would also be helpful if you could comment a few things now and then requesting what you would like to see!

I would be best described as a funny, cheerful character, I am always up for a good laugh and always tying to cause mischief where ever I am! I always try entertain myself even to the extent of doing homework! I stand up for myself to anyone who tries to spoil my happiness and fun. But other than that I am always having fun with friends or family. The only times I am ever unhappy and grumpy is when I am hungry, tired or cold and wet, other than that I am normally a very happy person and if I'm not then I am normally very quiet. I talk A LOT, and I think I should start by stopping as I could write and write and write.

So if you like this post remember to follow me for more similar posts like this. It would be my dream come true if I can get this blog successful with a lot of lovely followers. I hope you have had fun reading about me. Have a good day, evening or sleep?


Bethany Hicks ;)