Today I decided I would keep on top of my blog, I am sorry I haven't posted anything in a while, I am sure you don't even care but anyway now I am back and hopefully will keep on top of posting. I thought I would write about being judged and underestimated, it has been bothering me and putting me down a lot in the past few weeks so I wanted to write about it and help anyone else that maybe in the same position as me. I am someone that is a very difficult person at times, I do things that I shouldn't do and the things I do get me in to a lot of trouble, maybe more trouble than all of my other friends. I am surrounded by good friends, they don't get into trouble all of the time! I wouldn't say that I get told of in class as much, I normally am concentrated and I care a lot about what I want to do with my life, but when it comes down to friends, that seems to be the problem. This is referring to most girls that get judged, because girls are so nasty, bitter and bitchy this is when the arguments start and that's where I come into it! I have grown up the whole of my life being named a horrible and nasty person, AND IM NOT! I do hold my hands up and say I can get nasty and horrible at times when something really gets me angry, but I am always trying to avoid that nasty side of me, and that's what people don't understand or see in me. I try and impress a lot of people and change things around, I don't want to be known as some nasty, bitter person I want to be known to be a nice and lovely girl. Just because I didn't care about my reputation in primary or year 7 doesn't mean I don't now, I care an awful lot about the way I come across! I know I got into a lot of arguments in primary and I wasn't liked by nearly everybody's parents but the way I see it now is that if they still don't like me, then they can go jog on. I don't care what anybody's parents think of me now, they don't really even know me and to still judge me on what I was like in primary and year 7 is pathetic.
I have thought a lot in the past few weeks, that I will still try and be the happiest, cheerful Bethany, but just not to care what anyone thinks of me, not everyone is liked by every person they speak to and that's just a fact of life. Popularity really doesn't bother me, I have my own group of friends that I trust and can speak to about anything, I am just going to keep my head up and be proud of who I am today, I wouldn't be who I am today if I hadn't of made all the stupid mistakes, in fact I would probably just be the same as what I was 2 years ago. So thanks to all the mistakes I have made, it has made me a better person and has really opened my eyes, I have learnt not to always say what I think, I should just keep my opinions to myself, then everyone will have no problem with me, and cant go around and tell everyone that I have said something nasty. I hope this has helped anyone out there in the same position as me, if your feeling down because of what other makes you out to be, just think to yourself, do I really want to be the same person, I was? and just try and turn things around, because in the end it will get better.
